My cheating heart vs. my stupid monogamous subconscious
March 30th, 2006
I wake up cranky and thwarted. “Damn it! I can’t even cheat on you in my DREAM. This stinks.”
“Mmmph,” says my husband. He would like to be more asleep than he is, but morning has landed hard on his chest. His wife is not even out of bed yet and already she is making very little sense.
“Do you cheat on me in your dreams?” I have a right to know. I keep an apartment in his head and if I’m going to bump into anybody in the lobby, I want to be prepared.
He opens his eyes. Some squinting. “Do I cheat on you? In my dreams?”
“Yes.”
He thinks. He thinks some more. “I really don’t.”
“It’s okay. You’re allowed to, you know. We’re supposed to be allowed to do that.”
“I know. But I really don’t.”
I believe him. Damn his noble mind. Damn my thwarted, less noble mind. It’s all very aggravating.
A few weeks later, the same damn thing. I wake up devastated and schlump around all day, knowing I have let the opportunity of a dreamtime slip right through my fat wedding-ring-laden fingers.
I bring it up with my husband that night, when he gets home from rehearsal. I am kind of mad at him. It might be his fault. His sweet Canadian-Jedi Mind Control. These aren’t the dreams you’re looking for, eh.
“I still can’t cheat on you in my dreams,” I say. I am being a little whiny. “Do you remember that conversation we had? Do you want to change your story?”
“I really don’t dream very much.” He pauses. “But I don’t think I ever cheat on you in my dreams. No, I never do.”
He is such a nice man; I can tell he is racking his brain for evidence of dream-cheating. He told me when he went to see The Dukes of Hazzard in Illinois during his business trip. He is that honest. He would tell me if he had dream-cheated; he would be happy to tell me. He has a hunch I am getting disgusted with the two of us and our unnecessarily loyal subconsciouses.
I make my little disgusted noise to confirm that I am getting disgusted. I like to confirm his hunches about me. I think it strengthens a marriage. “Errgh.”
He smiles fondly at me and takes a bite of the homemade meatloaf that Mama Stop ‘N Shop made for our home. I see now that my husband is pleased that we are not cheating on each other when we are lying side by side in bed at night.
My cheating heart is not pleased. “Last night? I met my celebrity boyfriend from The Office, and he thought I was great. He really liked me and I let him hold my hand for five seconds…AND THEN I TOLD HIM I WAS MARRIED.”
“Wow.” My husband is impressed.
“And then my celebrity boyfriend said, ‘Why did you have to move to the Berkshires?’ As in, he lived in the Berkshires too, and now he would have to be heartbroken and tortured with longing knowing that he and I lived in the same place and might run into each other. I am such an idiot.”
My husband chews his meatloaf thoughtfully, sympathetically. He doesn’t cheat in his dreams either, but all similarities between his brain and my brain stop after that.
I am very very very mad at my subconscious! I do not understand why It Hath Giveth and It Hath Taketh Away my celebrity boyfriend! It is so mean, my subconscious! I have been suffering from this dream-loyalty affliction for a very long time now. Before sleep, I beg my subconscious to let me pretend to be someone who looks like me except hotter and very not married. I tell my subconscious that I will make it a Mexican tin altar or a bathtub shrine with a picture of Freud pasted over the head of the Virgin Mary, if it will only let me be an oversexed adulteress in my head once every few weeks.
Now I’m indignant, all sizzly and jumpy like the stir-fry vegetables at that famous Japanese restaurant where you sit around and politely watch the chef be a chef but all you really want to do is hold a gun to his head and point at your plate because you’re tired of working so hard at looking revved up about him and his jazzy Ginsu knife.
That was supposed to be an analogy about the stir-fry vegetables, but somewhere along the way, it turned into something else. Let’s move on. We were talking about not cheating when you could be cheating with your celebrity boyfriend from The Office.
“I just think it’s all a HUGE STUPID WASTE,” I say. “A waste of PERFECTLY GOOD DREAMSPACE. We are wasting opportunities for GOOD GUILT-FREE EXTRAMARITAL ACTION.”
“Hmm,” says my husband. He is through with his meatloaf, and has now moved on to his carrots. In his case, a carrot is really just a carrot. I love him for it, but I still want my celebrity boyfriend. Come back, celebrity boyfriend. Please come back to me. Dangle your carrot that is not just a carrot.
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66 Comments
1. moxie | March 30th, 2006 at 12:37 am
am I your husband?
no, I am not, but I can’t even muster up the idea of cheatig in my dreams. I dream about making toast. and sweeping. and paperwork.
2. kirsty | March 30th, 2006 at 12:42 am
Hah! I can’t dream-cheat either!! Hugging and platonic-type kisses are as far as I can ever get and then my subconscious wakes me up. But if I’m dreaming about my husband I get to do Everything. I must ask him about his dreams…
3. Simon | March 30th, 2006 at 1:03 am
Stop it.
Stop it right now!
You had me at Canadian-Jedi Mind Control.
4. Annaliese | March 30th, 2006 at 3:12 am
I tell my subconscious that I will make it a Mexican tin altar or a bathtub shrine with a picture of Freud pasted over the head of the Virgin Mary
I’m picturing this. It’s very amusing.
If it makes you feel better, I really don’t have sex dreams at all. Insane dreams, yes; sex dreams, no.
The last time my girlfriend and I were apart for an extended time, she showed *up* in my dreams a lot, but we never even kissed. My brain was all “And you’re in this place, and chilling out. Hey, she’s here too! Cool, right? In this dream you and She are *reading*. Also now there WILL BE SINGING AND DANCING AND BACKUP AND HARMONY. OF PAUL SIMON SONGS. In the background, see flying monkeys do the two-step.”
I’d wake up sexually frustrated singing “Diamonds on the Soles of her Shoes”.
No sex dreams. I find this unfair.
5. JustLinda | March 30th, 2006 at 6:00 am
You know, at the risk of being a sychophantic internet weirdo, I’m in awe of the fantastic combo of your wit and writing. Yes, it was funny and I laughed. But mostly I just read and think, damn, the woman can WRITE.
I tend to have really good rauchy sordid sex dreams during pregnancy. I don’t feel a lick of guilt (no pun intended). There were times I would wake up and think “Um, DID I???” (and yes, I think I did!)
Outside of that, I’ve had dreams of my HUSBAND exercising his libido outside of the bounds of matrimony. Once we’re both awake, I give him the silent treatment over it. He hates being held accountable for MY dreams. hahah Well, I suppose he should have done his due-diligence before marrying me, then.
GREAT post! Really… funny, well-written, excellent topic. If this was the blog olympics, I’d give you a 9.97 (and the other .03? just on the off chance the next person somehow does better, but really - so unlikely.)
6. Trish | March 30th, 2006 at 6:24 am
I’ve never had that problem. Which in itself is a problem. Damned if you do, damned if you don’t.
7. the Mater | March 30th, 2006 at 6:52 am
I guess if you had bought me the Kegelcisor or some such toy for my birthday, I’d have to dream about cheating on myself.
Best line in your story: “in his case, a carrot is really just a carrot.”
Tell your subconscious to take five :>)
8. Barb | March 30th, 2006 at 7:09 am
When you tire of that celebrity boyfriend -send him next door to my dreams!
9. geogirl | March 30th, 2006 at 7:15 am
I already lost all respect for you when you had the dream about Brad Pitt and yet all you did was ask him to tell your husband not to leave you.
10. Margaret | March 30th, 2006 at 7:29 am
I’m single and I still don’t have dreams about celebrity boyfriends. It’d be nice.
11. Holly | March 30th, 2006 at 8:13 am
bwhaha i dream cheat. although i never actually get to consummate the dream cheating. it’s just lots of hot and heavy leading up to stuff. and i wake up very hot and very bothered.
because it is about SUCH inappropriate persons i was somewhat embarrassed and upset by it. now maybe i will enjoy my extra marital make out sessions in my dream. treasure them. because not everyone can be so lucky.
12. Marian Lansky | March 30th, 2006 at 8:41 am
Those Mexican tin altars don’t work worth shit. But John Krasinski? Really?
13. Bethany | March 30th, 2006 at 9:06 am
So maybe that’s why (pre-My Name is Earl) Jason Lee stopped coming around. I’m just to loyal.
Apparently I’m married, even in my dreams.
(And to my husband, a carrot is indeed also just a carrot.)
14. Spot the Wonder Dog | March 30th, 2006 at 9:17 am
Jenn Jenn Jenn.
You can’t hide your subconscious affection for Simon. Say what you will, but I know you daydream of yourself sitting by a poolside, watching Simon mow the grass in his Breed ‘em and Weep T-Shirt… muscles bulging… sweat glistening on his tanned skin… he turns and catches you staring, looking deeply into your eyes… you try to look away, but you can’t… you feel like you’re floating… your heart starts to race… his gaze never wavers… you realize your breathing had become labored, your chest heaves… the moments become an eternity… you can bear it no more… you stand, tearing off your top and shouting “Take me Simon! Take me now or lose me forever!”
…wait, I’m sorry. What were we talking about again?
15. Elizabeth | March 30th, 2006 at 9:30 am
These aren’t the dreams you’re looking for, eh. -HA!
I love that you have a celebrity dream boyfriend. Mine are usually jerks I dated in college.
16. Rachel | March 30th, 2006 at 9:33 am
Bwahahahahahahaha!
17. ladytheaj | March 30th, 2006 at 10:25 am
Well, anytime I have a sex dream I wind up messing around with my husband and just before it starts to get REALLY good we are either interrupted in the dream or I wake up. Then I spend the next 20 minutes laying in bed trying to get back into the dream and see what happens next.
18. Patti | March 30th, 2006 at 11:02 am
For shame! Maybe if you went to bed drunk your subconscious would be enebriated enough to let you follow through. But I’m going to bet that you’d regret it later…..subconsciously of course.
19. mom on a wire | March 30th, 2006 at 11:27 am
I can only cheat on my husband in my dreams when I’m pregnant. Which could be nice, but it’s never with anyone exciting. Usually, it’s with The Wiggles. Although Murray can be quite dashing when he puts his mind to it…
20. Simon | March 30th, 2006 at 12:04 pm
Spot, be careful what you write up there about me in my BeaW T-shirt. Maybe I’ll get my kid to lob some of his deadly cinnamon buns at you.
My wife just had a baby, so it may be more accurate to reverse the percentages on my shirt and call me 90% narcoleptic these days. There is still a burgeoning Hot Blooded Stud just waiting to burst forth though.
Like I said, my wife is very recently post-partum… these days, “Lest We Forget” has more connotation to it than just Remembrance Day (Veterans’ Day).
Quite frankly, I’ll be keeping my dreams to myself.
21. Lou | March 30th, 2006 at 12:17 pm
I always get to the point where I’m almost there, and then I tell him I’m married and I can’t. You’re right, it does suck. I should be able to shag anyone I want in my sleep. However, my husband only has sex dreams about me- and I rarely dream about him.
22. Vikki | March 30th, 2006 at 12:41 pm
I don’t dream cheat either. I never even have sex with my partner in my dreams. Sure, there have been hot tub scenes and knowing glances but when it comes down to action with anyone - I wake up right before it happens.
It could be worse…at least you are not redecorating your kitchen in your dreams!
23. KTP | March 30th, 2006 at 12:48 pm
I actually dream about having sex with my husband and that is a LOT more action than I ever get when I’m awake.
24. Jenny | March 30th, 2006 at 1:00 pm
But, I thought he was my celebrity boyfriend! I don’t get to cheat in my dreams either, it really pisses me off.
25. Paula | March 30th, 2006 at 1:02 pm
Everyone’s on a roll today! I know Simon, so I can safely safe, Jenn: get in line, he’s got a harem of admirers
As for mom on a wire- Wiggles?? Now there’s an image! Although every comment I can think of gets ruder than the last.
26. Paula | March 30th, 2006 at 1:03 pm
err… safely say
27. Mir | March 30th, 2006 at 1:29 pm
Damn. I kinda want to find a Canadian man, now.
28. scott | March 30th, 2006 at 2:21 pm
Did you read about that Indian guy who muttered the word for divorce three times in his sleep, and under islamic law was forced to actually divorce her for at least a hundred days? It was in local newspapers.
I, personally am not responsible for anything I do in anyone elses dreams!
29. DeeAnna | March 30th, 2006 at 2:25 pm
Yeah, no dream cheating here either - I always hold out for my husband. He doesn’t reciprocate and has all kids of great sex dreams - which I find very unfair.
30. Antique Mommy | March 30th, 2006 at 2:46 pm
Well, I had an elevator fling with Al Gore in a dream once and I made the mistake of telling my husband. I thought Al was kind of hot in a geeky sort of way during the first Clinton Administration before his face got fat. Anyway, my husband has NEVER let me live it down. He wasn’t offended that I dream-cheated on him, but that I did it with a Democrat.
31. Deb | March 30th, 2006 at 2:50 pm
I dream cheat.
I only have wet dreams while pregnant, tho, dammit. (Is it a wet dream when it is a woman?)
No cool celebrity boyfriends tho, they are faceless, always faceless. wierd huh…..
Dh has lots of great sex dreams about other people AND me! LOL So male of him….
32. Edmonton Jenn | March 30th, 2006 at 3:04 pm
I too dream about Simon..he’s such an internet charmer.
Actually, most of my steamy dreams are about my husband, and like KTP said, it’s definately more..ah…involved than things get in real life. Especially since he started working out of the country for months on end.
33. Ana | March 30th, 2006 at 3:16 pm
Well, at least you had *a* dream about Boyfriend from The Office. I LOVE the show Lost and have had two, count ‘em, two dramatic, frisky dreams about…young-dark-tortured-Sayid?….nooooo!
John. Locke. By-no-means-young-nor-dark-John Locke.
So which is worse- not subconciously cheating at all or subconciously cheating and not respecting yourself in the morning? Now every Wednesday night I feel uncomfortable. As though I had a drunken one night stand I’ll never admit to.
34. bee | March 30th, 2006 at 3:23 pm
Heh. I don’t exactly dream-cheat, as somehow I am always someone else. Definitely hotter than my fine self. Three nights in a row I have been three different hotties, and each night I’ve dream-cheated with the lads of Great Big Sea! But…my husband in real life is far hotter than they are so. So what’s up with that?! Oh, and it’s good to have you back. I totally seem to need a daily fix of BEAW.
35. The Homosexuals | March 30th, 2006 at 4:33 pm
Yo, Mattern, you’re a feminist–go rent one of them chyck-directed blue movies we keep hearing so much about… That’s a good way to open the door to the subconscious, while keeping the leash securely attached.
36. cant_talk_knitting | March 30th, 2006 at 4:52 pm
I have kissed your celebrity boyfriend in my dreams! And now that you’ve posted about him, it makes me realize something. I coudn’t figure out what exactly I found so appealing about him.
but now I think — there’s something kind of Grinnell about him. I could see him putting back a few cans of The Beast at the Pig Roast or hanging out at The Bar with his Rube’s hat worn backwards. Hmmm.
37. Contrary | March 30th, 2006 at 5:22 pm
Oh, I can so beat that. Try having a dream that you have cheated on your husband. No dream sex, just the knowledge that you did. That’s right, guilt without titillation. It’s just very irritating.
Oh, and I have also been unreasonably angry with my husband when I’ve dreamt that he’s cheated on me. The question ‘How long will I be paying for what I did in your dream?’, has been asked. Thank goodness he thinks it’s funny.
38. mama_tulip | March 30th, 2006 at 5:27 pm
See, now when I cheat on my husband in my dreams it’s always with freaky celebs. Like Danny DeVito and a bearded Michael Douglas. What gives?
39. Stacy | March 30th, 2006 at 8:51 pm
oooh, you’re missing out. celebrity dream sex is the best!!
40. the Mater | March 30th, 2006 at 8:54 pm
Holy Hannah, Danny DeVito in your dreams? I had him in the parking lot :>)
41. Mom101 | March 30th, 2006 at 9:56 pm
Nate still gives me a hard time about my illicist, subconscious tryst with Jon Stewart. And let me tell you, it was goooooood.
42. Sage | March 30th, 2006 at 10:47 pm
Okay, I’ve got a story for ya. My guy was sound asleep when I got home one night. I crawled into bed and started caressing him ever so seductively. And he whispered to me, “We have to be careful. Sage might walk in on us!” I demanded, “Who the hell do you think I am??”
It took a while for me to get over that one. Dream or not!
I don’t dream about sex with other people. I’m too busy listening to my guy talk in his sleep.
43. Amy | March 31st, 2006 at 12:10 am
my husband caught me talking in my sleep once. He listened closer. aparently I was dream cheating. He didn’t wake me up and I have no knowlege of it.
so the answer is to make your husband do a stake out and have him wake you up in the middle of your frisky dream. I’m sure you’ve been cheating all along. you’re just sleeping through the end.
44. geogirl | March 31st, 2006 at 7:59 am
Wow…I am so jealous! It sounds like you guys have a much better dream life than me. I only have stress dreams where I am being chased by tornadoes or running from tsunamis.
So here I am trying to live vicarously through Jenn and she totally let’s me down. Oh sure, she’ll throw me a bone talking about the extender or body painting but when it counts…nada.
45. jennifer | March 31st, 2006 at 11:20 am
my husband used to cheat in MY dreams, and i’d wake up and whap him for it. poor thing. thankfully, i got over it.
right now, i’m hoping for a jake gyllenhal dream date. mmm…
46. Nothing But Bonfires | March 31st, 2006 at 1:04 pm
I have to thank you for telling John Krasinski that you were married, because he is totally now MY celebrity boyfriend. He was heartbroken that you turned him down, and just needed a shoulder to cry on — it’s not my fault that it turned into something more! If you do happen to see him in another dream, though, I’d appreciate it if you wouldn’t tell him that I’m just using him for sex.
47. jes | March 31st, 2006 at 5:58 pm
Hmph. We have the same issue, the dreaming of cheating on our spouses.
AND YET I FEEL GUILTY WHEN I WAKE UP, because in MY dreams, we totally went all the way.
48. Bethany | March 31st, 2006 at 8:52 pm
Geogirl-
I am right there running from tornados with you! I HATE that. Here I am in a peaceful happy dream and I look out my window and what’s that? A tornado? Then all hell breaks loose.
Much better to have a celebrity boyfriend you can’t sleep with in your dreams than to dream about tornados, Jenn, trust me!
49. veronica | April 1st, 2006 at 4:13 pm
My husband and I have a deal that we both admit and apologize for our cheating dreams. I don’t think he feels particularly threatened by mine, however.
BECAUSE I only have happy, fulfilling sex dreams about one kind of man. Famous fat comedians. Exclusively. No one else.
Doesn’t bother my husband at all, but hardly glamourous for me.
50. Kathleen | April 1st, 2006 at 5:03 pm
I have a fabulous dream life. Very rejuvenating and probably the only reason I can wake up every morning and face a brand new day. BUT I would never tell my husband for fear that he’d stalk me everytime I got naked - I need him to keep thinking I’m frigid for the time being…
: )
51. jackie | April 1st, 2006 at 7:05 pm
i have dream cheated and wake up feeling horribly guilty. i’m not sure if the guilt comes from the actual cheating or the fact that it’s usually with anthony wiggle! i am relieved to see that i’m not alone in my australian fantasies. thanks, mom on a wire!
52. Susanpmi | April 1st, 2006 at 10:32 pm
Don’t complain about not being able to dream-cheat to me. I wake up and realize I have spent the entire night FILING. Like filing papers in a FILE CABINET!! I could be flying through the air like superman or making out with George Clooney or realizing that I can actually breathe underwater, but noooooooooooooo. I file.
53. Ana | April 2nd, 2006 at 3:09 pm
OMG, the WIGGLES?!?! That is hysterical! I feel so much better about John Locke. But I do have to say, jackie, that Anthony *is* the cutest.
54. KeriS | April 2nd, 2006 at 8:14 pm
While everyone else seems to have focused on the tragedy of no dream cheating, what I liked best about your post was:
…I make my little disgusted noise to confirm that I am getting disgusted. I like to confirm his hunches about me. I think it strengthens a marriage. …
Jenn, this is touching. Really touching. And it DOES strengthen a marriage. At the end of the day, we are lucky even if we have nothing else in the whole world than our children and our strong marriages. It makes us rich beyond our greatest cranberry door dreams. (Or at least I tell myself that!)
55. MzVette | April 2nd, 2006 at 8:53 pm
Here is what you do… in your dream.. call your man up and ask his permission! Then you just have to hope he says yes… I had a dream where I was going to have sex with a ghost and in the dream I called my fiance up to tell him about it, haha. He didn’t care in the dream, but of course I woke up before anything really interesting happened.
56. JenfromBoston | April 3rd, 2006 at 11:43 am
Jenn! We have the same TV boyfriend! And he is from Newton, too! (which I am sure you already knew but just in case). So at least you try to keep ‘em LOCAL, like there is a CHANCE he could back this way to visit his family or a class reunion or something. So TAWRDY and SCANDALOUS! So at least there is that, if you are feeling a little down on your monogamous ways.
My ramblings on “my (backup) love” John Krasinksi (wow, and polish too! The Mater must be pleased)
http://oncemore.typepad.com/once_morewith_feeling/2006/01/backup.html
57. joy | April 3rd, 2006 at 1:22 pm
hey!! that there office guy is MY dream celebrity boyfriend. Can’t believe that dude is cheating on me. and he wouldn;t do it with me either. herrumph, whats up with that? i don’t think it’s you, lady, i think it’s him. oh, and our solid dependable husbands, (damn them to hell).
58. Debby | April 3rd, 2006 at 8:23 pm
I dreamcheat all the time. It’s good for you and whatever ails you and keeps you young. Unfortunately, I can never quite get a handle on who these mysterious men are, but I guess it’s probably better that I don’t know because they could turn out to be the Wiggles or John Locke from what I’ve been reading.
OMG, I loved the line “Canadian Jedi Mind Control”
LMAO
59. Kirsten | April 4th, 2006 at 11:53 am
I don’t know what is wrong with you ladies…I mean, come on - ANTHONY and MURRAY Wiggle are OK, I guess, but everyone knows that the hottest Wiggle is Capt’n Feathersword…talk about a dream date?
“Magic buttons”, he’s got half a dozen…..
60. JenfromBoston | April 4th, 2006 at 12:42 pm
Jenn, I have asked the question. Know who he said?
CARMEN ELECTRA!
I do not know this man who sleeps beside me.
I said, “but she is slutty!” and he replied, “that is kind of the point of an [dream] affair.”
I still haven’t bounced back from that one.
61. roomie | April 5th, 2006 at 1:02 pm
I have dream-cheated, but only with dream-lovers whose names start with “J.” My husband’s name is Jay. So my partners have been John Stewart, Johnny Knoxville, and Jason and Jimmy from my high school.
The mind is an amazing thing, huh? It doesn’t even seem like I am even mentally cheating, because these dream-figures are all aspects of my husband. By the way, his “Johnny Knoxville” aspect was quite fun.
I can’t believe THIS is my first post on this blog. Dream-cheating! Fabulous.
62. irreverentmama | April 7th, 2006 at 11:05 pm
I dream-cheat once a month, for three glorious, steamy mid-cycle days. They’re always strangers, they always crave me endlessly, and though I couldn’t tell you what they look like, I somehow know they’re gorgeous.
BUT…we get naked, there is some steam building…and then one of my kids walks in…or he suddenly vanishes…or I’m suddenly in a completely other place…or there’s a time-warp and we’re back to being clothed again…
AND…even if we get past that and everything is steaming along nicely, I always, always, ALWAYS wake up before I (am I allowed to say this?) come.
Damn.
63. Nicole | April 11th, 2006 at 10:32 am
Oh my gosh, I had an “office” dream last week! It was a REALLY weird one where I was Jim. yeah, that kind of weird. So I was Jim, and he and Pam got together, FINALLY. I was so excited. Oh my gosh, I think I just weirded myself out.There was some hanky panky going on too, which was especially weird since I am a girl, and pam is a girl, but Jim is a guy, you get the idea.
Jim is my celebrity crush too, but I’ll never tell my dh because I don’t want to hear his! I am the ‘jealous’ type. his mom told me last time we visited that once long before we had met each other while watching a Salma Hyack (bad spelling, but you get the idea) movie he said to her, “Hey mom, take a good look and meet your new daughter-in-law.”
The next time we saw her on TV I immediately got that nasty look on my face. What a GOON I am! Jealous over an OLD movie crush? Whatever!
64. nik | June 1st, 2006 at 1:42 am
Every time I’ve had a steamy dream, it’s with someone I had no palpable attraction to in real life. (I.E. Perry Farrell and Simon Cowell- what the hell????) I always wake up slightly grossed out, but I have a certain affinity for the celebrity after that, like we have a dirty little secret.
65. nikib | June 17th, 2006 at 7:12 pm
i have quite a lot of sex dreams with celebritys and they are always celebritys i like. ive had one every night for the past 3 nights and always with a different celebrity. i even usually end up marrying them!!!
Although i always feel guilty when i see my partner fast asleep next me!!!!
66. Rachael | August 29th, 2006 at 12:06 pm
Better to dream than to act
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